I’ve not been at my best the last couple of weeks. Really haven’t felt well at all, like an extra layer of sickness that sat on top of the treatment and has made me very very tired. It seems it may have been a viral infection, both the kids had it and the GP said it is doing the rounds at the moment. While I was at the Dr’s with the kids I had him give me a quick once over and nothing to worry about, I was a bit concerned that I had a chest infection but he gave me the all clear. That “extra layer” seemed to just lift a few days ago and I feel so much better, almost born again!

Apart from that not a lot to report, at this stage of treatment the one emotion that is paramount is boredom, its just a grind. I think thats partly to do with not having a finish date instead I’m just treading water but hopefully my 36 week PCR will give a clue as to the finish date. I’m not bothered when the finish date is, I could do this forever, but I’m at the stage when I would like to know.

A few positives have emerged from the last couple of weeks. The main one being that I have had the time to ponder, research and come to a conclusion on one of the fundamental questions of life. My conclusion is that as suspected the Godfather 2 is a better film than Godfather 1.

Another positive has been that in a moment of reflection, not something I would recommend on treatment but I was weak, I realised just how happy I am with my life. I have a great family, great friends and all the other boxes are ticked too. I’m tempted to say how lucky I am but luck has nothing to do with it, its about setting high standards for yourself and expecting the same from others. If you do that one day you wake up, realise the shit has hit the fan and notice that everybody in your life steps towards you, not away.

So thats that, back to fighting the Dragon. Well its not really, I think its a terrible analogy and gives a false impression of what treatment is like. I think it comes from heppers wanting to portray themselves as hero’s, that sticks in my throat somewhat but I’ll save that for another day. I think treatment is more like a wildebeest fighting off a pack of hyenas or my favorite analogy, wall tennis. I’m sure most of you know what wall tennis is, just hitting a ball against a wall, its a game that really has no end you can’t ever beat the wall. Now as a kid I used to play a lot of wall tennis and the main thing I remember is that there wasn’t a single time when I didn’t think that I would win, crazy I know but thats me!

Your inspiration for this week….

If you are unafraid of the truth then lies cannot hurt you.

And remember, keep the faith, kill the virus.

BTW, my hair seems to be getting a bit thicker, here is a picture of me from last week.

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